THE LOVE I WISHED FOR

I reached at my company i don't want to meet Anna at least for now.

I want to keep a distance from her.

I don't know what I am feeling.

She is carrying Jack's baby and i won't be surprised if she leave me and go with jack.

But if she was going to divorce me then why she agreed for the marriage.

Maybe she got to know about the baby after the marriage.

Today or tomorrow she is going to leave and live a happy life with jack.

I don't know what should I feel.

But for sure I am not feeling any good about this.

We were never a married a couple to start with.

It was all an act from the start.

she love somebody else and it's not that she cheated on me.

We decided that we will live our own lives.

If it wasn't for her and mine family we would have never met to begin with.

I shouldn't care about it.

I don't know why but my heart started to ache from time to time.

I was deep in my thoughts suddenly someone knocked on the door and to my suprise it was the person cause of my despair Anna.

What she is doing here she have a document in her hand.

I frowned looking at her.

don't tell me they are divorce paper.

Is she going to divorce me now?

But isn't it too early.

But today or tomorrow this will eventually come.

She came to me and place the documents on the table.

My heart suddenly started to beat fast but why.

I shouldn't be like this.

"what is it?"

I looked at her and she had a serious look on her face.

"it's ....."

I made a fist and my grip tighten and looked down on the envelope.

I don't care nah I shouldn't care at all.

" A contract."

I immediately looked at her.

" huh? What?"

I asked confusingly.

" This is the contract for the new project with the Korean company we talked about."

" so what about that? Why are you here?"

" huh? What are you talking about?Did you forget that now you and I work together so I prepared the contract but check it once if there is something you need to change."

I looked down but my heart calmed down.

I feel relaxed.

" Edison Are you okay?"

" uhh..why?"

" I mean you are smiling. Something good happened today?"

I immediately stopped smiling.

I didn't realised when I started smiling.

" yeah i absolutely fine."

" why did you stop smiling? It was my first time seeing you smile like that. You should smile more often. You look good."

Suddenly I felt something in the bottom of my stomach.

I can feel my body getting hot.

" Then I will be going now."

" uh..okay."

She was about to go back but stopped struggling at her track and turned around to look at me.

" ohh and I need to talk to you about a important matter so please be at home before 7 okay."

My heart beat just skipped a beat.

I clenched my jaw.

" about what?"

"it's something important let's talk about it at home."

I nodded and she left.

What she want to talk about?

I am sure it's about the divorce.

Why I feeling anxious now? When I was feeling so relieved just now.

Am I sick or what?

I don't know what Is going on with my body now days.

I shouldn't be thinking about it.

But I found that All the time i was just thinking about her and what she wanted to talk about.

Time skip....

I was doing my work than my eyes fell on the wall clock.

It's already 6 I need to go home.

I sighed and leave the office.

In the whole car ride i was just thinking about the what the thing she need to talk about.

Even when I know what it was about.

I reached at house but I don't want to go inside.

My heart is telling me not to go.

But I opened the door revealing a smiling Anna.

I felt my heart relaxing.

I again felt something in my stomach.

She look so beautiful when she smiles.. ...i slapped my self in my mind.

What i am thinking about?

When did I stared to think like that?

" oh you came go take a shower and come for dinner."

I nodded and walked upstairs to the room without saying anything. And took a shower and changed into my nightwear.

I walked back downstairs and saw Anna sitting on the chair of dinning table.

I sat down on the chair in front of her.

" okay let's eat."

She served me food in a plate.

"dig in."

She said.

I nodded and start eating.

No doubt she is a good cook .

After few minutes she said.

" The thing i want to talk to you is...."

Here it comes.

Suddenly I clenched the spoon tightly.

My heart started to beat fastly.

Why I am feeling this way?

" Actually tomorrow is a party at Jack's house."

She said taking a bite and I looked towards her.

" huh? What? Party?"

" yeah there is a party at his place and he also invited us. So i want to ask you would you like to come."

" umm..but yo..."

" I know what you want to ask. Yeah me and Jack sort out everything so we are on good terms now. I would prefer you to come with Me but you don't have to if you don't want to."

I wonder why she is thinking?

What is going on and why she want me to come.

" And there will be a important announcement at the party."

Then i realised what she talking about she want to tell me with jack.

She want to divorce me and then she can celebrate it.

Does she want to mock me or what?

Suddenly I felt anger.

I know I shouldn't but I am angry rn.

" okay."

I said.

" uhh i mean you don't have to if you are busy."

" It won't be good if you go alone after all you are married now. I am done eating."

I said and left from there to my room.

I don't want to hear this right now.

I walked to the guest room and opened my laptop.

I don't want to sleep with Anna in the bedroom.

How can I sleep beside her when I know when she is carrying another man's child.

I want to keep the distance as much as i can.

But I don't know why I felt so angry.

I don't have any right to be angry.

It's not like she is cheating on me.

We are not like a normal couple nor we can ever be.

I only married her because of a agenda.

But If she is going to divorce me then how I am going to carry on.

Should I be thinking about this right now?

Anna walked in the room.

"are you again going to sleep here."

I acted like I was working on my laptop.

" yeah I have some work to do."

Work is only a excuse.

"can you sleep here?₹ I mean if you are not comfortable you can sleep in the bedroom i will sleep here."

" no it's alright and i think i have to work whole night."

"do you need any help?"

" no i can do this."

" yeah I know but remember that i also work in the same field so if you need any help just call me okay."

I nodded in response.

" okay then i should leave and don't overwork yourself."

"okay."

She smiled and left.

Uhh why she is being so sweet just so that she can leave soon.

I sighed and rested my head on the board of the bed.

This isn't how it supposed to go.

I am not allowed to feel anything toward her.

If this go on like this.

I am worried if I will be able to carry on the purpose of this marriage.