I Lost My Memory and Had Too Many S-Class Girlfriends

204 – Past Edelin (3)

“Hey, don’t move!”

It was something that happened unconsciously.

The man with glasses took out a dagger from his bosom and threatened Edelin.

Judging from the faint dark aura rippling around it, it seems to be of hunter origin.

But did Seojun realize that he was not an ordinary person? His trembling hands and trembling cheeks spoke of the glasses man’s feelings.

“I hope this year is safe… … Uh, uh, uh, uh?”

“you.”

Seojun stretched out his hand like a ray of light and grabbed An Gyeongnam’s dagger.

Even though I held the blade with my bare hands, it didn’t hurt at all.

The man with glasses struggled to move the dagger, but it was no use.

Seojun took the dagger with a cold expression and slowly crushed it. The dagger gradually became more crushed and eventually, unable to bear it, it snapped in half!

“Hee, uh, aaahhh?!”

The man with glasses and the black man were so shocked that they fell to their seats.

This dagger is no ordinary dagger. It is a type of treasure that I was lucky enough to obtain from the tower. Of course, it is not a high-quality treasure, but it is definitely not the type that can be broken so easily.

Now that I think about it, I feel like I’ve seen that man’s face somewhere before.

I’m sure that woman said her name was Seojun.

Surely it’s not that Han Seo-jun?

“you.”

A heavy, low voice echoed through the alley.

The man with glasses and the black man looked up at Han Seo-jun, gulping dry saliva.

In the midst of the ominous atmosphere, Han Seo-jun glances at Edelin’s face and then clicks his tongue.

“Get out with this kid.”

“Yes, four!”

Han Seo-jun grabbed Geum Tae-yang by the collar while he was lying down and threw him at them.

The man with glasses and the black man ran away carrying Geum Tae-yang on their backs.

“… … .”

“… … .”

For a moment, silence fell.

Han Seo-jun let out a sigh.

“Haa,” a sigh pierced Edelin’s ears.

After a while, Han Seo-jun turned his head towards Edelin and continued speaking.

“I hope I got lucky this time, but if I did something wrong… … Tsk.”

“I’m Seojun.”

Edelin, who knew that Han Seo-jun was worried even though his shoulders flinched slightly at the reprimand that wasn’t a reprimand, quietly called out to him.

Han Seo-jun looks at Edelin with a puzzled look.

“what’s the matter?”

“Were you worried about me?”

Han Seo-jun scratches the back of his neck for a moment, then snickers and says.

“Well, that’s true. How can we not worry about each other?”

What is our relationship?

Between colleagues?

Between the person giving help and the person receiving help?

With someone you have a crush on?

I don’t know.

But one thing I can say for sure:

“So don’t make me worry too much.”

I really love Seojun.

“It’s dangerous to walk around like this after drinking.”

Because I really, really love you.

“Well, anyway, should we go back for now?”

I just can’t control these feelings.

“I bet the other kids are worried too?”

Even though I know I shouldn’t do this.

“… … .”

“Charter?”

“… … .”

“Why all of a sudden?”

“… … .”

……really.

“Is it because of the alcohol? Are you upset? Or is it because of those guys earlier?”

… … This really shouldn’t be happening.

“I’m fine… … ah.”

Is it because the tension has been released?

My legs feel weak.

So I almost fell over, but thanks to Seojun who caught me, I was able to prevent the disaster of rolling around on the dirt floor.

“are you okay?”

“ah.”

Somehow, it turned out that I fit right into Seojun’s arms.

“It’s okay, Seojun. Thank you.”

Edelin blushed and gently grabbed Han Seojun’s shoulder.

Han Seo-jun’s body odor, Han Seo-jun’s scent, was attracting her.

I just wanted to dream in his arms for a little while.

… … I’ll stay like this for just a little while, just a little while.

“Anyway, I told you to drink moderately. You can’t usually drink, so why did you drink so much today?”

“Yes, that’s right.”

“By the way, aren’t you starting to fall apart?”

“Can we stay like this for a little while? I’m so scared. It reminds me of that old story.”

“hmm.”

Han Seo-jun sank to his knees, looking slightly embarrassed.

From Seojun’s perspective, this situation where he has a girlfriend but is hugging another woman seems very difficult.

But Seojun doesn’t push me away.

Because he is kind.

Seojun is not so ruthless as to throw away someone who mentions bad things from the past while shaking his body.

“I’m sorry… I still haven’t calmed down….”

What am I doing now?

Hugging a man who has a lover.

I don’t want to burden Seojun, but I don’t want to hurt Jihyun.

I know I really shouldn’t be doing this, but I can’t stop.

I don’t want to stop anymore.

Seojun, me, just a little bit.

Can’t we be just a little bit greedy?

Is it really not okay to be a little greedy as long as it doesn’t interfere with the relationship between the two of you?

“Well, for now, let’s go back to the dorm… … .”

Could you please look at me a little bit, so that I can do my best to make you happy so that you won’t be unhappy?

“excuse me.”

“Huh? Why again?”

I know you and Jihyun get along well, but aren’t there some things that are a little uncomfortable for each other?

I’m sure there are some parts that are a little lacking, but can’t I fill in those parts?

I don’t dare to push Jihyun away and become your lover.

I just want to stay near you.

So, Seojun, please.

“……i like you.”

Okay, I like it.

I really like you.

Okay, okay, I like it.

I know I shouldn’t do this, but I can’t stop.

I feel like I’ve been holding back for so long that my heart is broken.

I shouldn’t have said it, I shouldn’t have revealed my true feelings, but I ended up doing it anyway.

I confessed my feelings to Seojun.

I licked my lips, even though I knew I was embarrassing him.

I can’t stand it anymore when I’m in your arms.

Your scent, your body odor, was so fragrant that I got drunk.

I confess to Seojun again with a flushed face and moist eyes, as if I were drunk.

“I like you, Seojun.”

“Oh, wait, you? What?”

Seojun looks embarrassed.

But I can’t stop.

Once you confess your heart and love, you can’t stop.

Edelin spoke to Han Seo-jun, half-giving up on the idea.

“I know that Seojun really loves Jihyun, but can you give me just a little bit of that love?”

Your heart is as warm as a lake.

If you could just scoop it up with one hand and hand it over, I’d be satisfied.

You can be happy if you just take a sip.

If I exist in a handful of your hearts, that’s enough for me.

Please give me just a little bit of your heart.

My greed only goes so far.

please…….

“ha.”

Han Seo-jun sighed deeply with an embarrassed expression on his face.

His strangely hardened face speaks for itself.

After taking Edelin away, he stares at her with a complicated expression.

Why are you looking at me like that?

I was suddenly frightened by Han Seo-jun’s expression, which I had never seen before.

She became anxious and quickly moved her lips.

“I’ll explain it well to Ji-Hyeon. I’d be happy to be second… … .”

“Sorry.”

A brief apology.

He neatly rejected Edeline’s heart.

As soon as she realized that fact, Edelin’s heart broke. She had expected it, but it was even more painful. She felt a tingling sensation in her diaphragm.

As expected, I knew this would happen.

It’s normal to be rejected.

But, I can’t stop now.

I don’t want to stop.

“Uh, uh. Hey, Mr. Seojun? You can think of me lightly. Don’t feel burdened, that’s what they call a hero’s lechery… …?”

“Sorry.”

“I’ll go to Jihyun and tell her everything! I’ll beg her to just stay by my side and apologize for being unreasonable… …!”

“Charter.”

Han Seo-jun simply avoided eye contact and resolutely refused.

“Ah, that, that is, uh.”

What are you so sorry about?

What can’t accept my heart?

Is it something to be so sorry about?

“Why, why why… … Am I, am I that unattractive?”

“… … .”

“Is it because my breasts are smaller than Jihyun’s? It’s okay. I’ll definitely grow. I’m younger than Jihyun.”

“… … .”

I looked up at him with a half-teary face.

Her image was reflected in Han Seo-jun’s eyes.

A face that is praying earnestly and desperately.

“Seojun, please.”

“… … All I can say is that I’m sorry.”

Shiver.

A heart that bursts like a flood cannot calm down.

The pain of rejection tore my heart apart.

Edelin cried out urgently.

A part of my mind kept screaming at me to stop, to shut up, but I wouldn’t listen.

This reality was so harsh that I couldn’t bear it unless I did something, said something, grabbed onto even a shred of hope.

Pride wasn’t important right now.

If I miss this timing, the distance between me and Seojun might widen forever.

“Why, why!”

“… … .”

“Why can’t I? I’m not the only one who wants to be loved. Okay?”

“……stop.”

“I just want you to think about me a little bit while dating Jihyun. Why can’t I? Huh? In this day and age, it’s not that strange to date someone like that, right?”

“Charlotte. I’ll pretend I didn’t hear anything about today.”

“Why? Why? Just think about it for a moment. I’ll take care of everything. Okay?”

“I told you to stop.”

Seojun just rebuked her with an expression as hard as a rock and as cold as steel.

No. No. Please.

“Okay. Let’s go back now. I’ll walk first.”

“Seo, Seojun?”

He walked forward with brisk strides.

It was a few steps away from me.

That distance seemed to be talking about the psychological distance between us. He drew a line thoroughly. At best, I was just one of the clan members.

“Why.”

Even if you just gave me a tiny piece of your heart, I would be satisfied.

I just wanted a little bit of your love.

But is that something you hate so much?

“Do you hate me that much?”

If this was going to happen, why did you save me?

Why did you take it out of the Seongcheon Church and show it to the world?

Did you make me know love and make me love?

If it was going to be like this, you shouldn’t have bothered with me or saved me.

Why are you abandoning me when you made me love you?

“You’re not even talking anymore.”

I told you once, let’s go see the cherry blossoms together.

He said he was happy when we looked at the night sky together.

He also said that he wanted to look up at the night sky together and chat.

“… … .”

Are you going to ignore me now?

What am I to you?

I thought of you, Seojun, that much and loved you so much that I endured it all.

You… … You… … You… … !

“… … I spoke uselessly. I’m really sorry, Seojun.”

“No, no. Charlotte, you’re just mistaken. It’s called the swaying bridge effect, isn’t it?”

“… … A mistake. Ah. I see. My mind was mistaken. Yes, that’s right.”

“Okay, then let’s go.”

“… … Yes. A mistake, yes. A mistake. It was a mistake. Oh, I see.”

Is my mind mistaken?

I bit my lower lip hard as I looked at Seojun’s back.

How can you call my heart a delusion?

Me. How much I think of you and love you.

I secretly had a crush on you and my heart ached and I cried.

When you and Jihyun were having s*x, you couldn’t sleep because you were vomiting!

How can you deny my heart?

Why did you assume my love was fake?

You, and no one else. Me. Why.

‘……too bad.’

That’s too much, Seojun.

This is really too much.

It’s a good thing he’s walking ahead.

Because you won’t be able to see my tear-filled face.

“Don’t think too badly of me. I’m sure you’ll meet a man who’s much better than me.”

“Okay, let’s go.”

“Someone like you could definitely meet a third-generation chaebol, an S-rank hunter, a celebrity… … Well, you could easily meet anyone, right? So you don’t need to worry about someone like me.”

“okay.”

I resent you for taking my life’s confession lightly.

You tell a girl who confessed her love to meet another man.

My confession is, what on earth was my heart to you?

I knew Jihyun was there, but I had no intention of threatening her position.

I wish you had just given me one chance to meet up for a little fun.

In the end, you don’t even give me a chance.

“Mr. Seojun.”

… … I hate you.

I really hate you for denying me.

“Seojun, is it okay if I meet another man and get married?”

“If it’s what you truly want to get married for, then it doesn’t matter. Oh, but isn’t it a bit early to be talking about marriage when you’re not even dating yet?”

I once dreamed of marrying you.

I imagined laughing next to you, whispering sweet nothings, and having children.

The child is just like you, reckless and brave, but also mischievous and troublemaker.

While always having a headache because of accidents, sometimes I would scold my child harshly and you would tell me not to scold my child so much and I would scold you for being too pushy with your child…

It was all just my imagination.

Because you kept pushing me away.

To you, I’m nothing more than a clan member, right?

Right?

Seojun, do you know that?

I fell in love at first sight with you, the person who saved me from the church.

But you just had s*x with other women, whether you knew it or not.

I used to groan foolishly, unable to forget you.

I spent each day in excruciating pain, my heart clawed at with my fingernails and my brain splitting apart.

But I didn’t want to interfere with Seojun and Jihyun’s love, so I held back, crushing and splitting my heart and keeping my mouth shut.

One day, two days, one month, one year… … .

I kept holding it in. I kept holding it in because I knew it wasn’t right.

How long do I have to put up with this?

Mr. Seojun, didn’t you really know that I liked you?

Aren’t you just ignoring the facts while knowing them?

Did you think I wasn’t greedy because I always looked at you with a foolish smile?

Yes? Mr. Seojun. Go ahead. Yes?

Please tell me.

I told you to tell me!

“You don’t hate me, do you?”

“No way. But I have Jihyun.”

… … Mr. Seojun.

“I’m not very good compared to Jihyun, am I?”

… … Mr. Seojun. … … Mr. Seojun.

“No. Honestly, I like your looks more.”

… … Mr. Seojun. … … Mr. Seojun. … … Mr. Seojun!

“Come on, let’s stop now and go back. It’s been too late.”

Do you like my appearance better?

Even so, you’re dating Jihyun.

So what’s the use of all this?

“I’m sure everyone has been waiting a long time.”

Was Jihyun the problem? If it weren’t for Jihyun, being there would have been…

“Yes. Let’s go back.”

… … Ah? What am I thinking right now?

I was startled by the imagination I had just recalled.

It’s something I would never normally do.

But not now.

Rather now.

Rather, I… … .

“… … .”

“… … .”

An awkward silence lingered between Edelin and Han Seojun.

The two people walked along in silence.

Han Seo-jun didn’t say anything the whole way back to the restaurant.

He too walked awkwardly, his lips tightly shut.

How long did it take to walk like that?

The shape of a restaurant began to appear in the distance.

Despite the late hour, there were quite a few customers.

At the table, drunk people were drinking foamy beer and toasting the day’s fatigue.

I walked past the loud laughter and approached the table where my colleagues were staying.

At that moment, Lee Ji-hyun spoke up.

“What’s wrong, Han Seojun? Why are you so late?”

“Oh, yeah. It’s just a little late.”

Seojun answered, looking a bit awkward and avoiding eye contact.

“Huh? Your reaction is not very good. By the way, Edeline, don’t wander around alone. You’ve been drinking like that. It’s dangerous to walk around at night.”

“Yes, Jihyun. I’ll be careful next time.”

She looked at Edeline worriedly.

When I saw Lee Ji-hyun’s face, which was genuinely worried, I felt so pathetic for having been so foolishly jealous and envious.

Jihyun is a good person.

I am well aware of that fact.

Seojun will be happiest when he is with her.

But me?

What should I do?

Am I supposed to just stare at them like this and watch them laugh?

Will it continue to be like it has always been?

Should I just keep watching?

All the way from afar?

“… … Okay, then shall we go to the motel?”

So we went back to the motel.

Edeline walked into the room without saying a word.

Squeak.

I opened the door and went in.

The room was quite dark.

Only the moonlight seeping in through the window rippled miserably.

Suddenly I heard voices from outside the room.

It seemed like the soundproofing wasn’t as good as I thought.

That’s just a random cheap motel.

“… … If we do this, we’ll be able to hear voices from the next room.”

Seojun’s room is next door.

I wanted to get a room far away, but today there were a lot of guests, so it wasn’t easy to get a room. I had no choice but to cry and get assigned a room next to Seojun’s.

She smiled bitterly and turned over the blanket.

I confessed to Seojun today, but I was rejected outright.

I thought he would hesitate a bit, but he rejected it outright without a moment’s hesitation.

I had no idea how I would look at his face in the future.

The reality that I had to watch them love each other so sweetly again tomorrow was too cruel… … .

dripping.

Someone knocked on the door.

I peeked my head out, wondering.

I felt a presence in front of the door.

Who the hell are you?

I asked the question quietly, thinking, “Could it be Seojun?”

“who are you?”

Really, really, Seojun?

You may have come to see me because you were worried about my appearance going in weakly.

Before I knew it, I was worried.

If it were Seojun, I had no idea what kind of face I should look at.

Edelin swallowed hard and walked toward the door.

But contrary to her wishes, a bright woman’s voice was heard outside the door.

“It’s me, Your Majesty.”

“… … Ah. Yerin.”

Ryu Ye-rin, what on earth is she doing?