I Lost My Memory and Had Too Many S-Class Girlfriends

179 – Han Seo-jun’s Memories (3)

A butterfly dream.

I can’t tell if dreams are reality or reality is a dream.

Maybe all of this is just a pipe dream, born of delusion.

A mayfly porter who lost his parents may have had a vain dream before he died.

Return, wish, tower. What does it all mean?

It’s just as funny as a fool’s dream.

“… … .”

dream.

Yeah, I had a dream.

This is truly a horrible nightmare.

I watched the story of a man with nothing from beginning to end.

A man who lost his parents and loved ones and wanders around climbing a tower. He started climbing the tower with hatred in his heart.

As he climbed the tower, countless people died. Every time someone who had been cheering him on died, the man could not help but blame himself.

But I didn’t stop walking.

Even though I regretted and blamed myself, I took each step forward with difficulty.

Rather, the deaths of people made it even more difficult for me to stop walking.

They were obsessed with conquering the tower and hung on to it so that their deaths would not be in vain.

That makes sense, because if you conquer the tower, you can make a wish, right?

On the surface, I laughed it off as a ridiculous rumor, but unconsciously, I became obsessed with that wish.

Just think about it.

Monsters, abilities, towers.

Does all this make sense?

If there really is a god who created the tower and gave trials to humans, shouldn’t he give a proper reward to those who overcome the trials?

When Edelin told me her story, I didn’t even listen, but as time passed, I became more and more attached to her words.

Because I had no choice but to hang on, and had to hang on.

Otherwise, what would become of all the things we’ve done so far?

Their deaths are also dog deaths, right?

If there is a God up there in the sky, this should never happen.

No way.

Looking back now, I can only say that it was really foolish, but at the time, I was so desperate that I couldn’t think of anything else.

That is why he did not hesitate to use any means necessary to conquer the tower.

No, to be precise, ‘for me’ to conquer the tower.

Because if someone else had to conquer the tower first, it would have been a total waste, so I needed to conquer the tower first.

Therefore, there were many instances where they attacked people with useful abilities, turned them into vegetative states, and used them as batteries to recharge their abilities.

At first, he only targeted criminals, but as the daily routine became more and more repetitive, he lost his humanity and eventually crossed the line.

They coaxed or killed talented people, and kidnapped capable people.

If necessary, he did not hesitate to betray others, and he truly did not care about the means and methods, such as deliberately setting traps.

Every time I hurt someone, I apologized in my heart.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.

But it’s okay, right?

Because all problems will be solved if you climb the tower.

Yeah, top, if you climb that tower and make a wish, I’ll make it all come back to life.

You can go there and complain. I’ll pay for my sins as much as you want. It doesn’t matter if I get killed later.

So, if I can just climb the tower, I’ll do anything.

The man was desperate.

I continued to climb the tower with blood on my hands.

Because we were only a latecomer, we had no choice but to be anxious.

Moreover, I was less talented than other people.

The man was neither wiser, braver, nor luckier than other men.

There were as many people as grains of sand on the beach who were better than men, so it was impossible to catch up with those who had been running ahead of them by fair means.

If so, there is only one way.

Making full use of ‘ability’, the only area where men excel.

Since a man’s strength came from the number of abilities he absorbed, he needed to absorb abilities from as many people as possible.

A man who can permanently take away other people’s abilities, and Edelin who can permanently take away other people’s abilities.

The man and Edelin had similar interests and were good at synergy, so they cooperated as much as possible to achieve their own goals while excluding others and climbing the tower.

But when I first climbed the tower.

The man, no, I realized.

That there is no such thing as an all-powerful holy grail that can accomplish everything in this world.

“… … .”

I slowly opened my eyes.

The heavy eyelids slowly opened.

As I opened my heavy eyelids, which felt like lumps of lead, a bright light greeted me.

“… … Phew.”

For a long time, I felt like I was wandering in a dream.

It was only a moment, but at the same time it felt like decades.

A flood of memories came flooding back, and I spent a lot of time slowly retracing them. It was such a strange experience that I could have dismissed it as a mere delusion, but as the memories naturally began to sink in, I had no choice but to admit it.

The fact that all of this is a memory of my past.

‘Did Kim Yu-wan… run away?’

I glanced around, but the room was empty and there was no sign of life.

I searched the surroundings using telepathy and spatial detection, but I couldn’t find Kim Yu-wan.

I guess he ran away before I woke up.

It could be said to be a good decision. If Kim Yu-wan were here, he would have absorbed the ability immediately and made him paralyzed.

Kim Yu-wan’s ability was very useful, so I wanted to absorb it if possible. It was a little disappointing. If I had known this would happen, I would have absorbed it a little earlier.

‘Make him paralyzed, ra… … .’

Now that I think about it, isn’t that a pretty grim thought?

If it were before I lost my memory, I wouldn’t have had such gruesome thoughts so easily.

But now, the thought of using or harming people was coming to my mind so naturally.

I suddenly looked at myself in front of the mirror.

For some reason, my appearance in the mirror felt unfamiliar.

It was a familiar face, but at the same time, an unfamiliar face.

I don’t know if I usually have this kind of expression or not.

As I looked at myself blankly staring with a blank face, I felt strangely strange. My past memories influenced my present, and my present memories influenced my past self. What should I say? It felt a bit strange, but not bad.

‘I don’t think you’re playing a trick on my memory.’

I looked through my memories again, but I couldn’t find any trace of Kim Yu-wan playing a prank.

Did you really get your memories back completely?

There was nothing wrong with it for me, but I felt a bit uneasy.

What on earth is Edelin thinking? I don’t think she wants to die for me.

‘Well, fine. What I have to do won’t change anyway.’

Let’s go back for now.

Because I have a lot to talk about when I meet them.

Where should I start? What should I talk about? There is a lot to talk about regarding the information of the Seongcheon Church and the tower strategy. Edelin has had the upper hand in information so far, but now she should be able to catch up to some extent. Oh, of course, if Kim Yu-wan hasn’t been playing tricks.

“Hmm. Let’s see. Was it like this?”

I muttered to myself, stared blankly into space, then slowly reached out my hand.

As I grabbed the empty space and pulled at it, it began to tear like a piece of paper.

I could see that a dark, shady space was revealed beyond the torn-off void.

That’s what’s called a gap in space.

Beyond that space, the sight of Jihyun’s clan house training grounds was faintly visible.

I slowly stretched my feet through the gap in the torn air. Since I had memorized the coordinates in advance, I was able to reach the target location through space.

Although it doesn’t open up the space as cleanly as Charlotte Rasberry, I think it’s passable.

Because he was able to successfully use an unfamiliar skill like this.

Thanks to the memories of having stolen and used numerous abilities, I was able to realize my own abilities.

I moved across space without hesitation, and was suddenly able to space jump into the empty space of the clan training ground.

As we moved to the clan training grounds, the first things we saw were Seoyoon, Hwaryeon, and Yerin’s faces.

Aren’t they each sparring, holding their weapons tightly and staring blankly into the gap in space with tense expressions?

It seemed like he was reacting sensitively, perhaps because he remembered being surprised by Charlotte.

But even though he saw my face, he didn’t take his nervous gaze away.

I wondered for a moment why that was, but then suddenly I realized one thing.

By the way, I did send a message.

The message I sent to you during the process of regaining your memories flashed through my mind, warning you that you might have been brainwashed.

Perhaps it was because they wrote the story in detail, thinking that it might be the last time? Their expressions were unusual.

“teacher……?”

“What the heck, you space jump, how do you use it? Did you really get your memories back?”

“Seojun? Are you okay?”

I looked closely at their faces.

It was a face I had seen just yesterday, but for some reason, it felt like it had been a long time since I had seen it.

I don’t know how to describe this feeling exactly, but I could tell that I was really bubbling with happiness and regret.

I would have liked to greet them warmly, but there was something I wanted to do to experiment on the occasion that they were suspicious of.

I wonder how they will react if I turn into their enemy.

Also how much has changed since the fight with Charlotte.

If it had been before I regained my memories from before my regression, I would not have dared to imagine such a thing and put it into action, but not now.

I needed to know exactly how strong they were and what their mindset was going forward.

And above all, isn’t this an opportunity to closely examine my current condition?

When I lost my memory, I was like an idiot and couldn’t use my abilities properly, but not anymore.

I’ve been taking a huge amount of elixir for almost a year, so I was curious to see how much difference it would make.

Rather than something as frivolous as a sparring match, this kind of action that is based on actual combat would be more effective.

It was a bit of a crazy idea and I felt a little sorry for them, but I didn’t want to just let this one chance slip away.

‘How much have the kids changed since before the regression? It seems like they’ve been training hard, but I guess they’re lacking compared to before the regression?’

With that thought in mind, I slowly raised my right hand.

“teacher?”

When I saw Yerin’s face, I was reminded of when she died and a corner of my heart ached, but I didn’t live a comfortable life enough to give up because of this level of guilt and sin.

If necessary, wouldn’t you have done any number of harsh things?

I apologized to Yerin in my heart and slowly gathered my power. It was an act that was no different from openly declaring that I would attack. If it was Yerin, she would have reacted immediately. Why is she staring blankly like that? Because I am the target of her attack? I feel a little sorry for saying this, but it shouldn’t be like that.

“Wait a minute? Sir? Why are you… … .”

“Hey! Get out of here, Ryu Ye-rin!”

Kuung!

He used telekinesis to crush Yerin’s body.

Seo-yoon and Hwa-ryeon, who were nearby, quickly dodged, but Ye-rin was unable to respond properly and had no choice but to fall to the ground.

Yerin groaned and tried to stand up, but she was unable to move because the attack was using much stronger telekinesis than before she lost her memories.

Moreover, Yerin’s physical ability was relatively low.

There is nothing Yerin can do about it now. If it were Yerin before her regression, she would have had enough physical ability to overcome this level of telekinesis. Compared to before her regression, her overall balance was not good.

“Han Seojun, are you crazy?!”

“Seo, Seojun.”

I turned my gaze towards Hwa-ryeon and Seo-yoon without saying anything.

When will Jihyun come?

Honestly, I’m most curious about Jihyun’s abilities.

Maybe even stronger than I am now?

‘Well, if you keep causing trouble like this, they’ll probably come on their own.’

As a result of spatial detection, we were able to detect Jihyun’s presence on the upper floor.

You must have noticed the commotion by now. Let’s just wait a moment until Jihyun gets here.