SWNOVELXO Chapter 5: DAY 5
Date: 14 July 2025
Day: 5
(Hey! Hey! Hey! Where are you? Andy! Andy! Where are you? Why didn't you tell me before you left? Andy come back!) I got up with a jolt. I saw the time, it was 2 am."Why am I seeing this dream again?" I was confused. I couldn't sleep after that.
So I took my phone and started to scroll, there I noticed something, Patricia was online. I wondered what she was doing soo late. I texted her and asked what she was doing. What I got back I didn't expect.
" I was just speaking to my boy friend. His name is Joshua." I froze. I didn't know what to do." She loves someone else? I thought she was single and didn't get into relationship so easily. How did this happen?When did this happen?" I had soo much in my head. So much that I couldn't think straight. I calmed myself and asked her who this Joshua guy was.
She said," Me and Joshua are childhood friends. We got committed just a few weeks ago." I felt a similar ache as before, I once again dragged myself to get the pills, which I hid underneath the floor board near my wardrobe. I was struggling to open the floor board. I coughed heavily, with each cough drops of blood came out. It was getting really tiring, I thought of giving in. Then I heard a click sound, the floor board opened. I quickly grabbed the bottle and took a pill.
It soothed the pain immediately and I stopped coughing blood in like 5 minutes but my coughing didn't stop until it was already an hour since I got up from my nightmare.
I cried, these were silent tears, the type that no one knew existed. The ones which shows that you have completely turned into a man, who never cries, for him crying is a weakness, a burden, an insult, that's what was inculcated to us by our elders, wasn't it? If you are a man, you shouldn't cry. The stereo type of a man, "Man doesn't cry." Let me tell you! We too cry, we are also human beings not rocks. There are times we don't show ourselves cuz it feels like letting loose our guard. That's why many don't see men cry.
I was broken. I experienced another pain, the pain of a heart break. It was worse the pain which I got when I cough.
" Now I know why they say a heart break is so impactful, it not only effects you emotionally, but also physically." I tried my best to sleep, but I guess sleep had become a friend that rarely visited me. I finally slept at 5 am only to get up by 7 am.
Today, my eyes gave up, so did my body and soul. I was the definition of pain today, not gonna lie. As I walked into my room, there I saw her, yet again falling for her long hair. I saw her and walked myself to my seat without making contact with Patricia. I didn't notice that Carly was seeing all this.
She asked me," Hey Andy! Why the long face? Who said what to you? You just say the word, I'll take care of him." I told her," It's nothing, just a small misunderstanding. " Then we continued in our work.
At lunch, Patricia came near my place and asked me how I was? I said," I'm really good, what about you? You look dull? Did that Joshua say anything? Tell me I'll break his face." She said," NO he didn't do anything. Please don't fight, if you consider me as your good friend." I listened to her.
Carly asked me who this Joshua was? I told her," Patricia's boyfriend." Her face dropped. "She has a boyfriend? When did that happen?" I said," I myself don't know. If I knew I wouldn't have approached her." Carly was really concerned, I've seen Carly since a small age but never seen her so upset and dull. " Don't worry Andy. Don't think about this too much. I'm always here for you." I saw her when she said this, I could say that she was more hurt than I was. I told her to take care of herself.
On our way home, I asked Carly why people like us love truly and get hurt? Is there no resolution for this? She said,"I really hope I knew the answer, but unfortunately,I myself ask the same questions." Then we parted and I went to my home. I went into my room and just took some rest.
(I am running from some place and suddenly I fall from a high place.)
"It was a dream!" I said to myself and I tried to sleep again.
Some questions don't have any answers, and it's best we leave them that way. What do you guys say?