The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

492 – The Curse of Inferiority

The warrior’s younger brother cannot help but be depressed. No matter how much the fireflies light up the darkness, they are nothing more than insects in front of the moon, which drives away the darkness just by existing. The younger brother of a special warrior who is nobler than anyone else, stronger than anyone else, and has more faith than anyone else is grouped together simply because he is a blood relative.

Looks, skills, personality… An inferior being in everything. Just because there was someone right next to me who made me feel endlessly about my own inadequacy, a feeling of extreme inferiority was inevitable, and depression was a natural phenomenon to avoid going crazy.

however.

Even if you don’t gain enlightenment by suddenly swinging a sword like Roel, even if you can’t believe that the kindness of a stranger you see for the first time is pure kindness, even if you are inferior to others, grow slower, and don’t even receive love from your parents… .

The warrior’s younger brother cannot give up. Is there any firefly who wouldn’t yearn for the moon that drives away darkness from unreachable places in the sky? Even if you can’t reach it, even if you can’t get closer… In a way, chasing something that has become one’s nightmare and dream becomes a natural thing.

Kang-!

The spear that I swung with all my might was blocked in vain by the religious leader’s hand gesture. An attack that took a lot of effort and experience was blocked with just a wave of my hand, but I don’t stop. For me to be this depressed, Roel, my eternal target of comparison, has always been superior. If it doesn’t work once, he can just repeat it hundreds or thousands of times as he has done so far.

“You too are wasting your time doing useless things.”

Ignoring those words, he materialized the Spear of Shadow and simultaneously opened the space warehouse and took out the Spear of Decisive Battle. By adjusting the position of the outstretched foot to a posture suitable for using the two spears, he narrowed the distance to the position where the spear’s power was most effective and fired a series of strikes.

Rather than my personal thoughts, it is actually an arbitrary action. The optimal behavior created by the experience that has fully melted into the body and muscles. A spear filled with magic and power destroys the surroundings, shrinks the space, and shows intimidation, but there is only so much I can do.

The leader, who lightly grabbed the spear blade using the power of chaos, looked disappointed and bored.

“You fool.”

Pow-!

The window of shadow that had been realized exploded. I sensed something strange and quickly let go, but the explosion was fast. Her left hand disappeared as if torn by the teeth of a wild beast. But it wasn’t the pain that filled her mind, it was what I should do next. I immediately used my magic power to crush the tattered flesh to stop the bleeding.

The leader looked at me with a look of incomprehension and asked.

“Why are you fighting me when you can’t win? Is it just pride? Or is it because of the fear that giving up means failure?”

Rather, I didn’t understand the question. Every loss starts with an inferiority complex. Some Ross quickly overcame their sense of inferiority, while others struggled with their sense of inferiority and longed for power, or perhaps gave up on trying altogether.

But the latter probably never happened. Because the one who gave up trying was us, Ross before Jin Xian possessed us. Of course, if it weren’t for Luna, I might have given up a long time ago. Since I had the most difficult start, I am even more precious to her for supporting me as I was falling apart.

We, who started out with different abilities and different environments and backgrounds each time according to God’s plan by a saint, have no choice but to understand the curse of ‘inferiority’. That understanding begins with ‘recognition.’ I can’t beat Roel. No amount of effort can surpass Roel. I can’t expect pure kindness from anyone like Roel. Let’s admit it. I am not the main character, I am just Ross.

Once you pass the acceptance stage, you can surprisingly accept the situation calmly. Yes, it would be correct to say that your heart becomes stronger. It’s okay to be rejected. Even if you are ignored, even if your plans go wrong, even if your efforts are betrayed… We, Ross, just accept it.

Because of the settings, it can’t be helped.

Even so, we don’t give up. The moment when I, who was inferior, is acknowledged by everyone just once, or achieves results by endlessly repeating the betrayal of effort, or becomes even a little bit ‘equal’ to Roel.

We, Ross… I feel a feeling I can never forget. It will be similar to the feeling of liberation that comes from being momentarily freed from the shackles that have weighed down your entire body since birth. If you experience it even once, you will no longer be able to give up. Maybe I, like everyone else… Could it be possible to become like Roel? Because I get that vague hope.

That’s why you can challenge yourself even in fights you can’t win and efforts that don’t give you any reward. For those who take failure for granted, failure is not something to be afraid of. Maybe that’s why God didn’t place the curse of ‘inferiority complex’ on all Ross. For the fool who can wield a spear against an unbeatable enemy, who can even use his own life to achieve victory.

I belatedly answered the leader’s question. I think all Ross will answer this way.

“Because Ross.”

“… .”

Although the cult leader, who was also Ross, would not understand.

***

When about half of the capital was buried underground, the army led by General Ian finally arrived. Each time the three chaos bugs destroyed the city, their size grew to a point where they could be seen. If the capital was completely destroyed, it seemed like it would be an easy task for a fully grown chaos bug to wipe out a city.

‘Minimize the damage.’

Ian, who remembered the emperor’s last command, sent the Imperial Guardian Golem in the lead and pointed at the nearest wriggling chaos bug with his baton.

“All golems and wizards, bomb them all at once!”

After being introduced to Wiz, who was recruited by Eunice as a new colleague, Bella realized the power of the invention that Ross had ordered from Wiz, and soon armed all of the imperial guardian golems with the invention.

That’s it―――.

,,, Kwahiah ah ah ah ah ahhh!

It was a magic stone bomb launcher that could fire 120 magic stone bombs per minute per golem.

“Ehee eah ―――!

As the Chaos Bug whose flesh exploded in an instant screamed in pain, the other Chaos Bugs that were destroying the city sensed Ian’s army and burrowed into the ground.

“It’s coming from below! Everyone follow the plan!”

While the horsemen on horseback formed a large circle and shook the ground to act as bait, the wizards and golems quickly scattered to the surrounding area.

Kwaaang—!

Chaos bugs appeared as they smashed through the ground and attacked the cavalry.

“Purring-!!!”

“Ugh!”

“Keuuuck!!!”

The horse and soldier rose into the sky along with the ground and then fell to the ground. With the wizard’s help, the impact of the fall was minimized as much as possible, but the horse that was not protected by magic exploded and died, and the soldier who was too far away from the wizard also shared the same death.

However, according to Eunice’s plan, the operation to protect the golem that could kill the chaos bug by sacrificing soldiers was successful. General Ian focused his attack on the Golem of Chaos again with skillful command.

“Ehee Ee ―――!”

The chaos bug that was first attacked was injured and escaped into the ground, but the one that appeared this time had to be killed. Ian and the knights holding the hammer rushed towards the chaos bug even before the explosion sound disappeared.

Insect flesh and blood poured down on their heads like rain, but they did not stop. If you don’t get the timing right, it’s a mission that will fail. So, even if I was crushed to death by pieces of flesh, I should not have stopped. In fact, the deputy who was running next to Ian was crushed by the flesh that fell from the chaos bug, and his body was torn beyond recognition.

However, Ian’s eyes never looked anywhere else. I was only focused on the enemy in front of me. Finally, the chaos bug, unable to withstand the power of the magic stone bomb, pulled itself out to escape into the ground.

“Now!”

The ten knights and General Ian, who were connected by ropes, launched themselves towards the mouth of the chaotic bug that was going into the ground. It was an action taken without any hesitation towards a chaotic insect with numerous teeth and stomach juices that could instantly melt buildings.

“Kwaaak!”

“aaah!!!”

There was a knight who was stabbed by numerous teeth or had parts of his body cut off by being struck, but they eventually passed through numerous blade-like teeth and arrived at a place where there was soft flesh.

“Put your magic power in the bag and throw it away!”

The knights carried bags, not swords. Small blades did not work against giant bugs that could easily destroy buildings. However, it is different if it is a bag full of magic stone bombs. This is especially true if the interior has soft flesh, unlike hard leather.

Following Ian’s instructions, the knights activated the magic stone bomb and immediately threw the bag down. In the meantime, as the chaos bug pulled its body further into the ground, Ian and the knight, who had their bodies fixed to the rope, were fixed, and numerous teeth passed by the knight and Ian again.

There was another death… Ian could see that the plan was a success. This is because a huge sound was soon heard from a deep, bottomless cave created by the chaos bug.

Cuuu!

Suddenly, Ian thought it sounded like the heart of the earth.