The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

487 – The first lie

Luna’s last memory was fighting Ian, who had attacked the carriage. Luna, who had lost consciousness after receiving a strong blow to her head, regained consciousness and was shocked to find that she was suddenly in the Messiah Club room and that Ross, whom she had wanted to see for the last time, was in front of her. muttered.

“… Ross?”

Luna thought that she was having a happy dream for the last time because she missed Ross so much that she was like a ray of light that she could see before she died. In that case, she thought it would be best to have a happy time to her heart’s content, and Luna ran towards Ross with her happy smile.

Because I wanted to hug Ross tightly like usual and tell him I missed him.

However, Luna, who had run towards Ross, returned to her original position. Looking around her with a puzzled look on her face, Luna saw a passageway in her dimension and she realized that the spatial magic created by Ross had transported her far away.

Why… ?

Luna was filled with a strange sense of betrayal and doubt as she saw Ross, who had approached her earlier using space magic, increase the distance between her and her. Just as she was about to burst into tears and feel something, Luna met her gaze with Ross, who was kneeling on the floor helplessly, as if her legs had given out.

“… .”

It was different. To the point where it was obvious, he was different from the Ross he knew in many ways. It would not be wrong to say that we have become more mature. It’s so hard to believe that this is what Ross looked like a few years later when we last saw him… Ross looked so different that Luna felt unfamiliar.

Seeing Ross’s lips twitching thinly as he looked at Luna in a daze, Luna felt like she wanted to comfort him and took a step forward without realizing it.

“… “Luna.”

Then Ross spoke for the first time. In a lower and more cracked voice than Luna remembered.

Ross finally decided on the expression he should make. Joy and sadness coexist… He spoke as if pleading with a face full of pain that left the viewer at a loss.

“please… “Don’t come near me.”

At those words, Luna felt as if an unknown lump had formed in her chest. She wasn’t hurt by Ross’ words, nor was she wondering if he hated her anymore.

just.

This was because he could not imagine how difficult it must have been due to the deep sadness that seemed to have no bottom, which was clearly evident in Ross’ voice. Luna felt tears welling up in her eyes. Luna, she said, always wanted to be someone Ross could lean on and make her feel at ease.

But Ross was back to his old ways. Before dating Luna, he looked dangerous, as if he would collapse at any moment. So Luna was sorry that Ross had to deal with his grief alone, and she felt sorry for him.

So I didn’t move any further like Ross asked. Every time my heart beat, I felt the urge to run and hug Ross and cry with him and soothe his sadness, but… My affection for Ross suppressed my impulses very easily.

Luna ponders what words to begin with… When she realized that she had not responded to Ross’s words, she opened her mouth as brightly as possible so as not to bother Ross.

“Yeah, okay!”

However, upon hearing Luna’s answer, Ross’ face contorted as if he had been kicked in the chest. Ross, who was clearly embarrassed and lowered his head to wipe away her tears, looked at Luna again. Ross, sniffling and swallowing her tears, said with as bright an expression as possible, just like Luna.

“I’m sorry, Luna. It’s definitely not that I hate you. Just, just… “It’s because I feel like if I hug you now, I won’t be able to let you go again.”

“Then you don’t have to let go for the rest of your life.”

Luna, who thought that this conversation was her last vision before she died, was free to give answers that she would normally not have been able to say because she was embarrassed. Because now it was more important for her to tell Ross what she wanted to say than for her to feel embarrassed. Even one day, one week, or one year was not enough time for Luna.

“good idea.”

Ross, who heard Luna’s immediate answer, burst into laughter. However, Luna felt that smile was sad because Ross’ beautiful blue eyes were wet with her tears.

Ross said with an expression full of regret.

“But not now. “I have work to do.”

“What happened?”

Ross thought about Luna’s question for a moment and then opened his mouth.

“What you must do as the manager of the Messiah Club.”

“Then I must do it. “Because that’s something only Ross can do.”

Luna felt Ross’ eyes slowly examining her face in detail. Luna’s pure white face couldn’t help but turn red at the affection contained in that gaze. Still, Luna never turned her head or avoided her gaze. She was more like Ross, she looked at his face carefully and found things that were different from her memories.

Scars increased and the skin became rough. The once clear eyes had lost their shine and were sunken low, and the ends of the lips were torn and burst several times, creating scars.

Seeing that, Luna wanted to ask what happened, but as usual, she decided not to ask until Ross told her first. Because everyone has something they don’t want to say.

“You know, Luna. If I really did something that anyone would see as pathetic… “What are you going to do?”

Luna shrugged her shoulders without realizing it at the sudden question. When Ross saw that reaction and smiled bitterly, Luna was about to answer in her haste, but when she saw the serious look in Ross’ eyes, she stopped trying to answer and thought.

“Anything, anything… “Of course I’m going with Ross.”

“I thought you would say that.”

Ross, with a bitter smile, slowly lowered his gaze and said.

“You know, I… “I lost everyone I loved.”

Ross finished speaking, but Luna made no reply. Because Ross wasn’t finished talking yet.

“I like you so much, I miss you so much… “I thought so recklessly that I could lose everything to get you back.”

Ross’ face was full of sadness as he said that. Her sadness was so severe that Luna, who was watching, let out tears from the corners of her eyes without realizing it.

“So now I hate myself so much. “I hate myself so much that I want to keep holding my breath like this.”

Luna felt sick to her stomach after hearing Ross’ words. The melancholy in Ross’s voice was not false or exaggerated, but was completely sincere. Ross, who had been silently shedding tears and swallowing his words several times, finally managed to speak.

“… So I thought that if I got you back, I would have to make everyone pay for my mistake. “Because that is my role and what I must do.”

Ross’ gaze, which had been looking at the floor, slowly rose and intertwined with Luna’s gaze in the air. At that moment, Luna had goosebumps all over her body. Luna had never imagined Ross looking so endangered and having such a hard time.

Ross, who had been struggling to breathe, finally let out all his breath and spoke.

“But actually in front of you… “I feel so pathetic for hesitating like this.”

A tear fell from Ross’s eye, down his cheek, and onto the floor. Luna also shed tears on the floor. The soles of her feet hit the floor a few times and Luna bit her lip, suppressing her urge to run to Ross.

Although it was her last chance to share with Ross before she died, Luna did not choose to leave without regrets as she confessed her feelings. Because, as always, she was a person who first wanted the people she loved to be happy.

So Luna decided to spend her last days helping Ross. No, she didn’t have to decide. Because it was a natural behavior for Luna.

“Yes, Ross is pathetic.”

Luna smiled at Ross, who was looking at her blankly.

“No matter what mistakes Ross makes, I will never leave his side. There’s no reason to hesitate. So, it’s pathetic.”

To Ross, who smiled as if it were absurd, Luna sniffed and spoke in an arrogant manner that did not suit him on purpose.

“Do you know what I was thinking when I was in a hopeless situation facing death?”

“… no.”

“I was worried about Ross. Are you too sad about my death? Are you in too much pain? Aren’t we going to lose our way forward? “All I could think about was Ross.”

Ross, who had been shedding endless tears at Luna’s words, opened his mouth with difficulty.

“… Blame it. He said he died because of me, that he promised to protect me but couldn’t. “They curse and blame me.”

Luna laughed at Ross’ words. Then she tilted her head slightly and asked Ross.

“Do you think Ross could do that?”

At that question, Ross smiled wryly, as if he had realized something.

“… No, never.”

“So I can’t either. “Because I love Ross.”

As soon as Luna finished speaking, Ross, who was kneeling on the floor, got up. It was a movement without any hesitation. The expression that seemed full of confusion also looked clean, like a person who had decided on something.

“Luna.”

“Yes, Ross.”

“I love everything about you.”

Seeing Ross revealing his sincerity by making eye contact, Luna had no choice but to answer sincerely.

“I love everything about Ross too.”

After hearing the answer, Ross slowly approached Luna. As Ross got closer, Luna’s heart beat faster. Ross finally stopped right in front of her and slowly lowered his head and locked lips with Luna. Ross spoke softly to Luna, who smiled happily at the happiness spreading throughout her body along with the thrill of goosebumps.

“I promise… I won’t make you worry or make you sad anymore. Because everything will be okay.”

After saying that, Ross passed by Luna and left the club room. But Luna didn’t turn around and she couldn’t grab Ross. She was in shock.

This is because the sight of Ross just moments ago was the first Luna had seen. She saw everything about Ross, and what even Luna, who loved everything about her, could not see.

So Luna knew right away.

That the promise just moments ago was the first lie Ross had ever told himself.