Chapter 75
As the weather grew colder, the war on the frontier became more intense, and the number of defeats increased. At the same time, conscription gradually shifted from voluntary to compulsory.
With few young people left in the town, it was fortunate that Shan Yu had a medical clinic open. After being pointed at and looked down on several times, Er Zhu shut his store.
He could only escape on the first day of the lunar month, but not on the fifteenth day. On that day, there was another recruitment call, and Shan Yu and Er Zhu were also on the list.
“Oh my god! I’ve never killed a chicken in my life. I can’t imagine how to kill people! Please don’t let me go! I don’t want to fight! Oh my god!”
Er Zhu collapsed in despair, and Shan Yu felt similarly.
In this era of iron weaponry, the effectiveness of killing mainly depended on physical fitness. The battlefield was all about hand-to-hand combat, and the cruel and bloody scenes could be easily imagined. Moreover, the original owner had never even farmed. Shan Yu had never done anything of the sort. Even if he could climb a tree, his physical strength might not match Wan Qiu’s.
Furthermore, Shan Yu had always harboured a shadow in his heart since he had fainted on the execution ground on New Year’s Day. He couldn’t guarantee whether he would be able to kill the enemy if he went to the battlefield, let alone whether he would be cruel or deserted on the battlefield.
In terms of mentality and strength, Shan Yu was less than 60% capable. To put it bluntly, he simply had no sense of belonging to this strange dynasty, so he lacked the courage to sacrifice his life for justice.
And how could a soldier who was afraid of death win the battle?
Shan Yu didn’t want to go to the battlefield, didn’t want to kill with a knife, and didn’t want to be killed. Most of all, he didn’t want to leave Wan Qiu and the child behind in this war-torn era.
No one could estimate how long the war would last. It might be a few months or several years. In an era of extremely backward communication, Shan Yu wasn’t sure if he would still be around Wan Qiu, even if he managed to come back safely.
Shan Yu still had many things to say to Wan Qiu, and there were many things he was hiding from him. More importantly, he hadn’t had the chance to tell Wan Qiu who he really was, and he still didn’t know whether Wan Qiu would accept him or not. Or if he would have to go home by himself.
Shan Yu had never been so upset before. He closed his eyes and held his forehead in thought. The idea of escaping overnight flashed through his mind but was quickly dismissed.
It would be good if he could return home. But if he couldn’t, would he have to hide in the mountains and forests for the rest of his life? Even if he was willing, could he let Wan Qiu, do it? What would happen to the children when they grew up? What should Grandpa Yaba do?
… They would surely be ashamed of themselves and unable to live a good life with their heads held high, right?
Not to mention that being a deserter was a serious crime, punishable by death. Not only would the deserters face death, but the soldiers in the same battalion would also be punished if they tried to escape.
Shan Yu couldn’t help but laugh out loud at the thought. He mused that this situation was truly better than others.
Er Zhu was speechless. “Shan Yu, are you crazy? Why are you still laughing?”
“What should we do then? Do you want to cry?” Shan Yu waved his sleeves and stood up. “The matter has come to a head. It’s useless to talk more. Take advantage of these few days to chop more firewood. Don’t end up unable to chop off the enemy’s head and lose your own.”
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At home, Wan Qiu was secretly wiping away tears while holding a pair of breast shield.
He was the one who had persuaded his husband to go to the battlefield, and now he was the one who was reluctant to let him go.
“What’s the use of giving me this? Everyone is picking up knives to fight, and they can’t even protect themselves.”
After Shan Yu finished speaking, Wan Qiu, who was holding a breast shield, cried even more fiercely.
“Husband~”
“Didn’t you ask me to go to the battlefield? Why are you crying like this?”
Everyone would say war was important. Wan Qiu understood the importance of it, but he really couldn’t bear to see Shan Yu leaving. With tears in his eyes, he looked at him and said, “I don’t want you to go to war. I don’t want you to go to war at all…”
“How about…” Shan Yu tentatively asked Wan Qiu, “We hide in the Deadly Forest? No one can find us there. We could leave now.”
Wan Qiu was stunned, then shook his head firmly and said, “Husband, you can’t be a deserter. That would bring shame to your ancestors and also harm other innocent people…”
In fact, Shan Yu only suggested this to comfort Wan Qiu and give him something to think about. He then added:
“After I leave, there will be no one left in the family. Although Grandpa Yaba and I have used many medicinal materials and built many good relationships, people’s hearts are unpredictable, especially in this turbulent era. I hope you and Grandpa Yaba can take the child back to live in the village. That way, I can feel more at ease…”
As Shan Yu said this, he couldn’t help but let out a long sigh. He hugged Wan Qiu, who was crying, kissed him, and patted him on the shoulder.
“I really can’t bear to leave you, and I regret not spending more time with you and our child. In the future, when I’m gone, you should be more cautious. Put away all your clothes and jewellery, and expose your birthmark so that you won’t be easily remembered. Remember to stay away from people who claim to have lost their memory, can’t recall past events, or have drastic changes in personality. These people are mentally unstable and prone to doing crazy things… Also, you are always soft-hearted when things happen. Although kindness is a virtue, the prerequisite for kindness is to protect yourself. Otherwise, you’re overestimating your own capabilities. You should think more about yourself and the child…”
Shan Yu was chattering, talking, and exhorting tirelessly, as if he were a different person.
Wan Qiu couldn’t bear to let his husband leave even more. He hugged Shan Yu’s neck and cried until he choked. “Husband, you must come back safely. I will wait for you with our child.”
“Yes,” Shan Yu wiped the tears from Wan Qiu’s face and coaxed him. “I will definitely come back alive. Maybe I can become a general after achieving military merit. By then, you will be the general’s wife.”
Wan Qiu chuckled, sniffed, and said, “I don’t want to be a general’s wife. I just want you to come back safely.”
“A general has a high position and a good salary. Why wouldn’t you want to be the general’s wife?”
“But the general also has three wives and four concubines,” Wan Qiu said softly. “I don’t want you to have concubines…”
“Don’t you want me to take a concubine?” Shan Yu tilted Wan Qiu’s chin to look at him and said with a smirk, “A good wife should never be jealous. Why are you acting like this? A jealous wife?”
Wan Qiu suddenly buried his face in Shan Yu’s arms and punched him in the chest. “Husband, you’re terrible!”
“Why do you think I’m terrible? I thought you liked me very much.” Shan Yu wanted to kiss Wan Qiu but decided to kiss his face instead. “Tell me, do you like me?”
Wan Qiu blushed, hugged Shan Yu’s neck, and nestled into his arms. He nodded honestly. “I like you. I like you very much.”
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At the same time…
On the road ten miles away from the town, a fast horse raced from the capital, closely pursued by others.
The beauty riding the horse had her crown tilted and her hair dishevelled. As she whipped the horse and galloped, she kept glancing back to check on the people behind her. “Lian Zhou? How are you? Lian Zhou?”
Lian Zhou coughed lightly, spat out a mouthful of blood onto the back of the person in front of him, and said with all his strength, “…Linlang…I’m afraid…”
He couldn’t hold on any longer.