SWNOVELXO Chapter 1382: Grumpy Tyr
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"M-Maria! Don't be mean with your kitty!"
Alma reprimanded me as she saw me pulling Beatriz's tail angrily.
She grabbed the cat and embraced her in her arms, rubbing her cute chin over the cat's head.
"Did she hurt you? You're okay with me now!"
"Nyaaah! Nyaaah!"
Beatriz started purring and rubbing her face over Alma's chin, while glaring at me with a feline smile, showing me her sharp fangs.
"You damn kitten!" I roared angrily. "Alma don't be charmed by her! She's actually evil! She's a familiar that's always messing with me. We were trapped in there and she didn't even save us!"
"Of course she didn't! I bet she turned into a small, helpless kitten or something…" Alma said. "Be glad she wasn't killed or something!"
"Aaah…" I sighed.
It was pointless to argue, to them she was only a cat-shaped familiar, and they had absolutely no idea she was actually a Nightmare Demon!
Beatriz was fairly weak compared to the Childhood Demon though, it seemed she didn't know how to create her own Nightmare Realm, as she never trapped us inside of one.
We were also inside another Nightmare Realm Dungeon though, maybe that didn't allow her to do it? Are Nightmare Demons limited?
I asked her those questions through telepathy, while promising her a mountain of nightmare cores if she answered.
"Hmph! W-Well… I… Uh, well I am the weaker of my siblings… We are stronger than the rest though! But… Um, no, I don't have a Nightmare Realm Creation Ability." She responded while seemingly acting flustered.
"Then it makes sense…" I nodded. "Tell me why you didn't help now."
"Geh! I already told you that I wasn't able to! Okay maybe I didn't turn into a kitten," she sighed. "But when you turned into a child, all of your powers disappeared, right? And so your Undead. We were all sealed in your Shadow Realm without being able to get out. Your other spirits did their best trying to get out too."
Hearing our telepathic conversation, the rest of my Spirits appeared one after another surrounding me, and even Myconidas!
Thankfully, nobody here except Nyx could see them, maybe because they lacked Spiritual Senses? But why Myconidas though? He's not exactly a Spirit.
Maybe because he's a Little God? I suppose Gods could be like very powerful Spirits, as they're embodiments of a concept and an element.
Though the whole concept of what is a god or not can also vary greatly.
"We were worried! We were unable to even leave! And that whole time we also saw you act and be a child! It was the strangest thing I've ever seen! Truly bizarre beyond belief!" Tyr said angrily, glaring at me with his huge red eye. "Don't go through that again, Maria! What the hell were you thinking?!"
"Look I wasn't even pretending to be a child if you think I was doing that!" I sighed, facepalming. "Also don't come to me reprimanding me or something, we also got a lot to talk, the two of us! Like, for example, why you didn't even want to talk with your mother when she finally joined us? We were with her for weeks and you never ever thought about talking to her once!"
"T-That's…" Tyr suddenly fell into silence once I mentioned his mother, Frigga. He had acted completely oblivious and non-caring about her, it surprised me how indifferent he acted. It was his damn mother in the end!
"You know how lucky you are that your mother is still alive?!" I told him through telepathy. "You should have talked with her! Even in your current form, I am sure she would have been very happy you were actually alive and conscious, and not a mindless monster!"
"…" Tyr fell silent, suddenly disappearing.
"Eh? T-Tyr?!"
He just went inside my Soulscape and then dissipated into nothing, becoming completely invisible.
What?!
…
Maybe I went a bit too far there.
Oops?
"Tyr?! Are you there? I'm so sorry! I didn't want to be mean!"
I tried to talk to him within my Soulscape, but there was no response.
Dammit.
"Okay, you can rest all you want… Come out whenever you feel like, ok? We have to talk about this… But take your time to sort out your thoughts."
"…"
No response, I guess I'll just-
"You don't know anything about me, Maria."
"Huh?"
I heard his voice once more, inside my Soulscape.
He was somewhere…
"What? I've seen your life through your memories once I absorbed your fragments! I know what you've gone through…"
"No, you don't really know the full story, you didn't go through my pain, through the suffering of being betrayed by my own father and my siblings…"
"Tyr… I have gone through things like that! I was betrayed by the people of the church I trusted so dearly when I was the Living Maria, I was beheaded, and my family was killed too!"
"But being turned into a monster… Being betrayed by those I actually trusted… Being cut into pieces and turned into a mindless abomination… Becoming so monstrous I hurt so many innocents, thousands of people, perhaps millions I killed through my rampages across the world! All of such people I had sworn to protect…"
"…"
"I couldn't face my mother after everything I've done… I couldn't just meet her and say "hey! I'm fine now!" or something! I am still a monster, don't you know?! I am still made of chaos; I am still aberrant… My normal appearance might never come back. I've made so many suffer… My life as Tyr is far over… even when my memories and consciousness returns, I am still the Evil God… an accursed monster."
"T-That's not right…"
"It is! I appreciate your help… And that you've given me a new purpose, and that you're bringing me to so many places… But going back to who I was… is impossible."
"So you're just going to forget about your mom because of that? You really don't know how far the love of a mother can go, don't you?"
"My mother would be horrified! I don't want to make her suffer anymore!"
"You're wrong! A mother will aways love her son no matter what, Tyr! I'm sure that she would've accepted you no matter what… So once we return to Yggdrasil, you're going to talk with her!"
"Grrrhh! Dammit, fine! But if she screams in horror and calls me an abomination, I am not going to talk with you ever again!"
Why is he so grumpy?!
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