Chapter 7: Chapter 7: The Kitchen at 2AM Was Not Neutral Ground
There's something cursed about the kitchen at two in the morning.
It becomes a confession booth. A battlefield. A truth serum factory with bad lighting and leftover lasagna.
I wasn't planning to be there. I just wanted water. Maybe a snack. A brief moment of stillness before returning to the existential spiral that had become my entire emotional landscape.
What I didn't expect was her.
Elena.
Sitting on the counter in one of my dad's hoodies again, nursing a glass of red wine like she was auditioning for a sad French indie film. Her legs were bare, swinging slightly. Her hair was pulled into a loose bun that looked like it took five seconds and still made her look like a walking Pinterest board.
I stopped in the doorway, caught like a raccoon in a fridge light.
She looked up. "Hey."
"Couldn't sleep?" I asked.
She shook her head. "You either?"
"Nope."
I went for the water, deliberately not looking at her. I had learned by now that looking at Elena for more than five seconds was a dangerous sport, like base jumping or checking your ex's Instagram.
She sipped her wine. "It's weird, right?"
"What is?"
"This house. The silence. Everything."
I nodded. "Yeah. It's like everything echoes."
"Even the stuff you don't say."
I turned around. "Are we about to have a deep talk over Tupperware?"
"Maybe."
"I'm not emotionally prepared for that."
"Too bad," she said, hopping off the counter. She walked over slowly, her bare feet making no sound on the tile. "You said something at dinner. About being with someone who listens."
I didn't say anything.
She stopped in front of me, holding her wine like a shield. "Were you talking about me?"
"I was talking in general."
"But thinking about me."
I swallowed. "Does it matter?"
"It does."
I looked at her. At the way the hoodie swallowed her frame, how her eyes looked shinier in the low light. There was something in her expression that wasn't teasing for once. Something raw. Tired.
"It wasn't just about you," I said carefully. "But yeah. You were on my mind."
She was quiet for a second.
Then, "I shouldn't be here."
"In the kitchen?"
"In this house. This marriage. This whole… thing."
"You said yes."
"I thought I could do it."
"And now?"
"Now I spend most of my time waiting for him to look at me and pretending it doesn't hurt when he doesn't."
The silence between us grew heavier, like someone had thrown a blanket over the room.
"I hate this," she whispered.
"What?"
"This feeling. Like I'm doing something wrong just for needing connection."
"You're not."
"Then why do I feel guilty every time you look at me like I matter?"
I didn't have an answer for that.
So instead, I reached for the leftover lasagna.
Because that's what you do when words fail: carbs.
She let out a breath that was half-laugh, half-sigh.
"You're eating lasagna at 2 a.m. after that conversation?"
"I don't know what I'm doing. But I'm hungry and emotionally confused."
"You're such a disaster."
"You're drinking Merlot barefoot in a hoodie that isn't yours. Welcome to the club."
She gave me the faintest smile. "Is it wrong that I feel safer with you than with him?"
"…It's not wrong to want to feel seen."
She walked over, slow, until we were standing only inches apart.
"You see me too well," she said softly.
"I try not to."
"But you do."
We stood there, frozen.
The air was thick with unsaid things.
Then her hand brushed mine.
Barely.
A flicker.
A question.
My heart launched itself into my throat.
"I shouldn't be here," she said again, almost to herself.
"I know."
Neither of us moved.
Neither of us ran.
And that was the scariest part.
Five Minutes Later
We didn't kiss.
We didn't even touch again.
She stepped back first. Poured the rest of her wine down the sink.
"I need sleep," she said.
I nodded. "Same."
She turned toward the stairs. Then hesitated.
"You make me feel like… I exist," she said, not looking back. "Even when I wish I didn't."
Then she was gone.
And I was left with cold lasagna and a heart that wouldn't shut up.
The Next Morning
Dad made pancakes.
He was wearing an apron that said Grill Sergeant, even though he wasn't near a grill.
Elena was smiling like nothing happened.
I was exhausted and emotionally short-circuited and chewing like my life depended on it.
"You two sleep okay?" Dad asked.
Elena nodded. "Perfectly."
I nodded too. "Yeah. Out like a light."
Lies, both of us.
But we smiled through it.
Because that's what people do when things get messy.
They pretend everything's clean.