Ms. Genius:I'm back

"I see." I replied, with a steady neutral voice and a stoic expression. Tomas was quivering, not knowing what I'm planning, and everyone was silent, waiting for me to explode. But I was better than that, instead of giving them the excitement they want, I wanted them to explode from curiosity.

I smiled and informed Tomas: "No need to be scared, I won't eat you", of course I won't, I don't like pigs to begin with, they are greasy and full of parasites and germs, not to mention it's the unhealthiest meat. And being the germophobic, misophonic person I am, with OCD of strong preoccupation with cleanliness and a fear of germs, I absolutely won't eat it. No, I'll make him a lesson for everyone. Then they'll remember who I am, and why no one mess with me.

"Go on, the break will end. And I haven't ate yet due to your stupid mouth."

Tomas didn't mind the insult I hurled at him, he didn't believe I'm being this forgiving and ran as fast as he could.

Everyone was disappointed, but I didn't care. Soon they'll have more gossip to talk about, or... maybe not. It won't be a mere hearsay; but something to be genuinely afraid of.

I returned to my seat, while my friends were staring at me weirdly for letting him off easily.

"umm… did the car hit the wrong side of your head?" Malik questioned worriedly, for this is not me.

Normally I would have flipped the school upside down, probably beated him to a pulp, then getting the other two and mopping the floor with them, then dragged them to the principal office.

I would get a lecture about beating people and get all our parents called.

Not that I care, as I know my father and older sister will take my side and continue keeping the school on its toes, more like my sister would do so, as my father is more the type of person to "solve everything with calm", not something that works with me and my eldest sister Diana, though Faith is more like father.

Anyway, Diana would back my actions if not beating the parents herself, for this is something I learned from her, and demand an apology and immediate action for the rumors the scoundrels spread about me and won't let the school off without a satisfied response or she might sue the whole school and families.

I'm really lucky for having such hot-headed, fiery sister, who's never afraid to cause a scene when she's upset, making her a force to be reckoned with especially when she's mad.

People may call her disrespectful, volatile and irascible, but she cares about her family the most and doesn't allow anyone to trample on us. She wouldn't disrespect anyone or hurt anyone, for that's not how dad raised us, we might be hot-headed but we never disregard, insult, or belittle anyone, we don't cause harm unless we're pushed to do so.

Looking at Malik, I smiled and said: " well… maybe??"

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"Geez… I'm kidding, but my physical strength isn't the best now, unlike before I might end up being the one turned to a pulp"

"You know we'll break the hand that dares to touch you before even touching you right?"

"You know Jason, I don't think I'll ever need a man when you guys are like this"

"Naturally", replied Jason proudly and warmly.

I giggled knowing that even though I don't have biological brothers, I still have brothers.

"I just want to sit and think, there's a lot of things going on lately, and I need some space and time, though I'm definitely not letting them of the hooks, soon I'll ask our lawyer to take care of it. And I have a gift for my dear ex and his slutty bitch."

The guys nodded in understanding, as they know our family is going through some financial difficulties due the hospital bills, and I could tell they are thinking that I'm probably still heart-broken from Ali's action and still processing the fallout, for we've dated for 2 years.

I won't deny and say they're not right, I did truly love Ali, for he is my first love, and we've done too many things together. To think that my sweet, confident, optimistic, supportive and passionate Ali is no longer like that is a shock to me.

It's like he's really not my Ali anymore. I don't know if he was like that from starters or he changed. But what could change someone like that? Was I not enough? Because I didn't sexually satisfy him? Or was it a game for him all along? For two years?

No matter the reason, it doesn't matter anymore. When I gained my memory back, and remembered what he did and say, I was really devastated and grief-stricken. I cried for a whole night, wanted to confront him, scream at him, ask him why, but I didn't. Cause I promised myself not to be weak, to be strong, maintain my dignity, not stoop to his level, and never let him break me, not only him but any man. Maybe I didn't love him enough, for crying for one night was the only privilege I gave him over me. I know others who got depressed, stopped eating, and kept questioning why their partners did that to them, but I didn't.

I didn't bother myself with him anymore nor did I seek revenge. The video was a way for me to break away without giving him anything in return. Not to harm him, for if I wanted, I would have made it impossible for him to stay in this school. But I decided to let it be, and end it at this for the sake of old days.

Maybe it wasn't really love, I remembered a conversation we had a year after we started dating, for he told me: "I feel like you don't love me".

I was shocked and ask him why does he think so?

"I feel like you admire me, like me and are fond of me, but you don't love me"

I was skeptical "isn't that love? Why would I admire you and care about or be fond of you if I don't love you?"

He smiled and replied: "you've seen Gia and her boyfriend? They are inseparable, she keeps nagging at him not to go out with his friend and spend more time with her, if a girl looked at him, she'll be upset and pout and he would shower her with love until she's satisfied, when he was going abroad to continue his studies she cried day and night for a week, refusing to let him go but reluctantly agreeing in the end."

I smiled and replied "yeah Gia and Locas are quite the lovebirds, they are soo romantics, but we're not like that, remember when we got together everyone was shocked, since we're not the romantic types. Besides I don't like acting like Gia, not that I look down on her or anything, but we have different personalities. I don't think it's proper of me to not let you have your own social life, and not let you see your friends, it's not like you see them every day, it's just one or two time a week, while the rest of the week we spend it together, whether alone or with friends or family. And I don't care if a girl looked at you, because I know she can't have you for you are mine, and I fully trust you."

Ali smiled and said: "that's why I love you."

Maybe I was wrong, maybe if I truly loved him, I would've acted like Gia. Or maybe I loved him but didn't love him enough. And maybe that's how he wanted us to be, and I didn't catch on. There's a lot of maybes, but I know now that both of us were wrong we didn't communicate properly, but that still doesn't justify his actions, and that when I needed him the most, he left me all alone.