I really don't want to be reborn.

Shen Youchu never thought about this proposition, what life would be like if he did not meet Chen Hansheng.

 She had thought about what her life would be like after meeting Chen Hansheng.

 Very common and very simple.

 When I was in college, I studied hard and helped Chen Hansheng with work;

 It depends on what Chen Hansheng's plans are after graduation, and you can just follow them.

 In the future, getting married and having children, taking care of Chen Hansheng's parents, supporting her mother-in-law, and running a family were such simple and traditional concepts in her mind.

 She didn't have great ambitions, and she was unwilling to accept new ideas. However, she met a boy like Chen Hansheng who didn't follow the rules, and the people and things around him.

 Shen Youchu raised his head, and the freshman junior sister in front of him was like this.

 "Sister, I actually like Chen Hansheng more than you do, and I am willing to do anything for him."

 Luo Xuan stared at Shen Youchu, then turned and left 101.

 Shen Youchu stood silently for a while. Just when he was about to continue cleaning, he felt a tightness in his chest again. His breathing seemed to be stuck in his throat, and he couldn't take a breath no matter what.

 She slowly squatted down holding the broom, and after a while she felt better. She insisted on cleaning before locking the door and returning to the dormitory.

 The next morning, Chen Hansheng came to 101 as usual, carrying a rare bag in his hand, and Shen Youchu also bought him breakfast as usual.

 "What's wrong with your complexion?"

 Chen Hansheng asked suddenly, and Shen Youchu looked a little haggard.

 "It's okay, it's too hot."

 Shen Youchu said softly.

 It's the end of summer recently. If it rains again, autumn will officially begin in Jianye.

 "Spring freezes and autumn covers. Recently, I can't change my clothes casually. At this time before, my mother used a stick to force me to wear long sleeves."

 Chen Hansheng picked up his breakfast, but at this moment, his wrist was also exposed.

 In fact, with the scumbag's usual thoughtfulness, the wound on his wrist had already been treated, and it would be difficult to spot it without careful observation, so he dared to walk in front of Shen Youchu struttingly.

 Chen Hansheng knew that Luo Xuan had created a misunderstanding, and Shen Youchu noticed it, but she lowered her head and said nothing.

 After Chen Hansheng finished eating, he raised the bag in his hand and said, "I'm going to the New Century Electronics Factory today. I have a project that I need to participate in."

 "Um."

 Shen Youchu nodded, but just when Chen Hansheng was about to go out, Shen Youchu suddenly said from behind: "Let's have dinner together tonight, okay?"

 "At night?"

 Chen Hansheng felt a little strange, but he had never done anything to feel sorry for Shen Youchu recently, so he replied frankly: "It's hard to say tonight, this project is very important, and I might have to stay up all night, so let's eat after I get back from work. "

 Shen Youchu said "hmm" and she sent Chen Hansheng to the door. She looked at his leaving figure, rubbed her chest and sat back on the chair to rest.

 Chen Hansheng went to New Century Electronics Factory to participate in the initial seminar of the MP3 project. As an office administrator, he participated in the recording, synthesized the opinions of all parties at the meeting, and finally came to an intentional conclusion.

 Ordinary administrative employees cannot do this job because they cannot fully understand Zheng Guanti's intentions, so it must be completed by Chen Hansheng, the "male best friend". In addition, he is also the initiator of the MP3 project.

 It often takes a long time for such a large factory with 1,000 people to establish a new department or conduct project demonstration.

 It is often a two-hour meeting, a 15-minute break, another two-hour meeting, preparation for dinner, another two-hour meeting after dinner, another 15-minute break, and so on, over and over again.

 Fortunately, Chen Hansheng was mentally prepared. He knew that the 200,000 yuan reward would not be easy to get. In addition, this was also a learning process, so it was not burdensome to do it. On the contrary, Zheng Guanti felt a little guilty.

 "I'm so sorry. You were so busy from morning to night that you almost forgot that you are a college student."

 Chen Hansheng smiled: "If it weren't for the fact that there are often class or student union affairs that need to be dealt with, I would almost forget about it myself."

 At around 11 o'clock in the evening, the New Century Electronics Factory's first demonstration meeting finally reached an intentional decision, allocating all resources in the factory to establish a new department, and inviting bids for manufacturers to produce MP3 monitors.

 MP3 is mainly composed of a central processing unit, a display, and a memory card. New Century Electronics Factory focuses on the research and development of the core central processing unit. The display business is provided through bidding partners. There are several local electronic display companies in Jianye.

 "I'll ask the factory driver to take you back."

 Zheng Guanti was very satisfied with Chen Hansheng's efforts today. Although he didn't say anything, he summarized his opinions very well, which shows that Chen Hansheng has a deep overall understanding of the project.

 "Thank you, Mr. Zheng. I'll come back tomorrow."

 Chen Hansheng was not polite. It was not convenient to take a taxi so late, so he asked the factory driver to take him back to school.

 When he arrived at the entrance of Caiyuan, the driver turned his head and said, "Secretary Chen, we're here."

 Chen Hansheng was thinking about something and grinned when he heard the title. What's the secretary doing if he has something to do?

 After a sleep, it was dawn again. In the morning, Chen Hansheng carried his bag again and came to 101. He found Shen Youchu lying on the table.

 "Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Chen Hansheng came over quickly.

 Shen Youchu raised his head. His originally rosy face was slightly pale, and his whole body was filled with a sense of powerlessness.

 "It's okay, you have breakfast first."

 Shen Youchu raised his head and took out breakfast from his bag.

 Chen Hansheng touched Shen Youchu's forehead. It was hot as if he had a fever.

 "Let's go to the hospital."

 Chen Hansheng made a quick decision and immediately took Shen Youchu to Jiangling District Maternal and Child Health Hospital.

 Along the way, Chen Hansheng asked about Shen Youchu's symptoms in detail. In addition to fever, there were also a series of symptoms such as chest tightness, anorexia, insomnia, weakness and so on.

 These seemed to have no special symptoms, so Chen Hansheng registered as a specialist in internal medicine.

 Although the registration fee for a female internal medicine specialist in her 50s is relatively expensive, her attitude is not very good.

 After hearing about Shen Youchu's situation, she directly placed an order and said, "Let's get an X-ray first to rule out organic disease."

 Chen Hansheng was startled: "It's so serious, do you need X-rays?"

 The female expert raised her eyelids and glanced at him: "I already said it was ruled out. If there are no organic lesions in the chest and lungs, that would definitely be the best."

 Chen Hansheng nodded and said nothing. What the female expert said made sense.

 There are many patients queuing up in the radiology department. They are noisy and noisy. Some people are talking loudly on the phone, some are sitting numbly on cold stainless steel chairs, and some are running back and forth on the stairs.

 The hospital is a place where hope and disappointment coexist.

 Shen Youchu looked at the room full of people. She was a little scared. She turned her head and looked at Chen Hansheng: "I feel a lot better. Is it okay to go back to school? You have to go out too."

 Chen Hansheng was originally going to the New Century Electronics Factory, but he was startled by the doctor. If he couldn't see the report card, he probably didn't have the mind to do anything else, so he stretched out his hands and gently held Shen Youchu's arms. Slender waist: "It's okay, you are the most important."

 Perhaps because he was in the hospital, the "hug" gesture was very warm. Although Shen Youchu was shy, he gently lowered his head on Chen Hansheng's shoulder and closed his eyes to listen to the heartbeat.

 Generally, there are two copies of the X-ray results, one is the report form, and the other is the black and white film. Some people wait here just to get the black and white film. In addition, there is a constant stream of new patients coming in, so it seems crowded.

 Two female doctors were doing the X-rays. They were young and very impatient. They shouted in a high-pitched voice: "After the photo is taken, you go to the right window to get the report. The registered doctor has seen it and it's OK. You can come back and get it." Film, because film time is a little slower."

 "Also, be careful not to jump in line, because there are no names on the film, so be careful of confusion."

 However, the environment was too noisy, and not many people could hear the doctor's instructions. The female doctor didn't want to repeat it a second time, so she arranged for people to enter the shielding room.

 Chen Hansheng checked the time and said to Shen Youchu: "I'll go get the report in a moment and ask the registration expert to take a look at it. You wait for the film here and stagger the actions to save time."

 On the one hand, saving time, on the other hand, he wanted to know the results as soon as possible.

 Soon, Shen Youchu's report sheet came out of the window. When he heard the name "Shen Youchu" being called, Chen Hansheng's heart actually shrank rapidly. He took a deep breath and walked over to get the report.

 As soon as he received the report, Chen Hansheng's first reaction was to glance down. It wasn't until he saw the words "No abnormality in the lungs" in the examination results column that he felt his heart drop again.

 Chen Hansheng felt a little funny when he thought about it. He turned to look at Shen Youchu. She was still obedient and waiting to get the black and white film.

 There were a lot of people queuing up, and the way Shen Youchu lowered his head looked a little naive, but also a little silly and cute.

 Chen Hansheng smiled softly and took the report sheet to ask the internal medicine expert.

 "There is no organic disease. This chest tightness should be caused by two reasons at the same time."

 The female expert still has a few tricks up her sleeve, and she quickly analyzed it: "The first is that she has been under too much pressure recently. Fever and anorexia are all complications. She can try to change her life in a different environment."

 Chen Hansheng was a little embarrassed: "She is still a college student. Unless she rents a house outside, how can she change her environment?"

 The female doctor shook her head and said: "Changing the environment does not necessarily mean changing the living environment. Sometimes staying away from people who cause her psychological pressure is also a kind of changing the environment."

 Chen Hansheng remained silent.

 "in addition."

 The female doctor continued: "There is another reason. Your girlfriend has a good figure. I suggest that the underwear be tailor-made in a lingerie store, because the underwear currently on the market may not fit perfectly, and tightness may also be a reason.

 Chen Hansheng felt relieved, stuffed the report sheet into his bag and left.

 In fact, the external cause is easy to solve, it is nothing more than spending money to customize it; however, the internal cause is Chen Hansheng himself, which is a bit difficult to solve.

 Chen Hansheng found Shen Youchu again, but he couldn't explain the two reasons directly. He just explained vaguely: "Don't worry, there is no big problem. I will go to the factory over there first."

 Shen Youchu nodded. Just as she was lining up alone, a middle-aged woman carrying a bag walked over diagonally, holding a child in her arms and holding a report sheet in her hand, with a very anxious face.

 The middle-aged women asked one by one: "I'm sorry, can I join the queue? The doctor said there is something wrong with my report and asked me to get the film for her to take a closer look because she has to get off work at noon."

 No one in front of her paid attention. When the middle-aged woman walked up to Shen Youchu, her eyes were filled with anticipation. Shen Youchu didn't speak and moved back a little to make way for her.

 "Thank you, thank you."

 The middle-aged woman thanked her hurriedly, but the people behind her were not happy: "College student, if you want to be a good person, then you should completely step aside and stand at the end to queue up again. We all have something to do."

 Shen Youchu did not argue and stood at the end of the line with his head lowered.

 However, the order of getting the reports was all set. Shen Youchu's kindness caused all the X-ray films of several people, including herself, to be messed up. So when it came to her, the female doctor looked up and suddenly looked at Shen Youchu. Youchu called into the house.

 "Did you come alone?"

 The female doctor asked with a serious face.

 Shen Youchu was a little at a loss: "My boyfriend is here too."

 "Where are the others?"

 "Go, go."

 "Where's your inspection report?"

 "Not here with me either."

 The doctor in charge of the examination sighed helplessly: "What are your symptoms every day now?"

 "Chest tightness, anorexia, weakness."

 Shen Youchu replied, her heart beating suddenly.

 "That's it, the symptoms are about the same."

 The female doctor nodded: "Although I can't see your report sheet, the film shows that you have begun to spread."

Shen Youchu was so confused that she didn't hear what the doctor said next. There was only one impression in her mind that the cancer cells had spread.

 "...In this case, we recommend that you be hospitalized for further examination..."

 Finally, the doctor concluded.

 "I have cancer. What will happen to my mother-in-law, what to do to my sister, and him."

 Shen Youchu's head seemed to be empty, and he walked slowly to the lobby of the hospital. The ambulance stopped at the door with its piercing siren. Doctors and nurses hurriedly carried the patient on a stretcher and rushed to the emergency room, shouting loudly: "Give way, please don't block the way."

 Immediately afterwards, a large number of people poured in. Shen Youchu stood in the middle of the crowd and suddenly felt as if he was transparent.

 The sun was at its peak at noon, and the white sunlight penetrated the leaves of the sycamore tree, leaving a round spot on the ground. Shen Youchu walked outside the hospital, and her legs suddenly lost strength. She slowly sat down on the nearby curb. .

 Seeing the cars rushing back and forth, the steaming duck-blood vermicelli at the food stalls, and the pedestrians passing by in a hurry, Shen Youchu breathed in the hot air, and she felt like her soul had returned.

 "Does all this have nothing to do with me?"

 Shen Youchu was trying to convince himself to accept this fact when he suddenly felt a little salty in his mouth and tears started to flow down his face.

 She picked up her PHS phone and pressed the call button to receive Chen Hansheng's cell phone immediately, because only his cell phone number was stored here.

 But at this moment, she suddenly remembered those Korean dramas Hu Linyu watched a while ago.

 "Youchu, if I get leukemia like the heroine of "Blue Life and Death", I will find a place with the most beautiful scenery and die quietly."

 "Why don't you tell your parents?"

 "I don't want them to be sad and sad. These diseases are incurable anyway."

 Hu Linyu said plausibly: "You can't tell your lover, because it will drag them down. Find a legitimate reason to break up. After all, it is really cruel when everyone is powerless..."

 "Just cause."

 Shen Youchu thought silently in his heart.

 At noon, the radiology doctor came back from dinner. After checking the information, he suddenly said: "Oh no, someone took the wrong film this morning. Shen Youchu's report is still here."

 ······

 At around 7 o'clock in the evening, Chen Hansheng finally walked out of the office after a day of meetings and looked up: "It's raining."

 "Yes, the first autumn rain."

 Zheng Guandi came over and asked, "Would you like to stay for dinner tonight?"

 Chen Hansheng waved his hand: "I can't eat it at all, my head is full of numbers."

 Zheng Guanti didn't force it. Chen Hansheng had put in a lot of effort in the past two days, and the results were obvious. The 200,000 yuan was really worth it.

 The driver in the factory drove the car over voluntarily, and Chen Hansheng said goodbye and left.

 Continuous high-intensity work made Chen Hansheng seem to have returned to his previous busy life. He was a little irritable and a little tired. However, thinking about seeing Shen Youchu soon, Chen Hansheng suddenly felt a little hopeful.

 "Boom."

 A sound of thunder woke Chen Hansheng up. The car was almost at the school gate. The driver wanted to take him in, but Chen Hansheng refused. He asked the driver to drive back directly.

 Jogging all the way to 101, Shen Youchu was indeed inside.

 For some reason, Chen Hansheng suddenly felt something was wrong. After turning around, he realized that 101 had been completely cleaned, and even the pot picking had been wiped again.

 "What are you doing cleaning on a rainy day?"

 Chen Hansheng said disapprovingly: "Anyway, we will be stepped on again. Have you had dinner?"

 "have eaten."

 Shen Youchu raised his head, moved his mouth, and hesitated to say what he wanted to say.

 Chen Hansheng was very observant. While wiping his hair with a towel, he said: "Don't hesitate, just say what you have to say."

 "I, let's break up."

 Shen Youchu said suddenly, his voice was like a candle in the wind, without any power.

 "Kacha"

 A flash of lightning flashed, and then a low muffled thunder sounded from the horizon, faintly shaking.

 "What?"

 Chen Hansheng was 100% sure that he heard wrongly.

 separate?

 Shen Youchu looked at Chen Hansheng, clenched his fists tightly, put his toes against the corner of the table so that he could have some support, and repeated again: "Let's break up."

 Chen Hansheng finally heard clearly. He slammed the towel on the table and glared at Shen Youchu: "Did you take the wrong medicine tonight?"

 In fact, Shen Youchu was extremely scared. She not only had to bear her own panic, but also faced Chen Hansheng's confusion, so she nervously grabbed the corner of the table.

 "Let's break up, okay?"

 Shen Youchu could no longer hold on and let his tears fall, one drop at a time along his chin and into the cracks in the floor.

 Chen Hansheng calmed down: "Can you tell me the reason?"

 "Teeth marks on your wrist."

 Shen Youchu raised his head, tears already covering his whole face: "That was bitten by a girl, and the girl during the quarantine. Whenever I think of these things, I feel worried."

 "What are you worried about?"

 Chen Hansheng asked with a cold face.

 "I'm worried you'll leave me."

 Shen Youchu looked at Chen Hansheng and said pleadingly: "Please, can you let me live alone?"

 Looking at Shen Youchu like this, Chen Hansheng suddenly remembered what the doctor said: "Sometimes staying away from people who cause her psychological pressure is also a kind of change of environment."

 He walked over and wiped Shen Youchu's tears while saying, "You didn't leave me even when such a big problem happened during the quarantine. You will never leave me now because of the tooth marks on your wrist."

 Chen Hansheng knows Shen Youchu very well. After all, he firmly holds the initiative in this relationship: "The wound on my wrist is actually a misunderstanding. There must be a reason for your nonsense this time. It should also be a misunderstanding. Can you tell me? "

 Shen Youchu actually wanted to tell Chen Hansheng, but as Hu Linyu said, this is a disease that even lovers can't do anything about.

 So she didn't say anything, just cried and shook her head.

 At this time, the door of 101 was suddenly pushed open. Shang Yanyan closed the umbrella as she entered the door: "It's raining really hard outside, I'm taking shelter here..."

 When she looked up, she was also stunned. She didn't expect to see such a scene.

 Shen Youchu was not used to crying in front of others, so he stood up and walked to the door, turning his head and taking a deep look at Chen Hansheng.

 This look back showed dependence, reluctance, sweetness, and grievance, but in the end it turned into a sentence.

 "You have to be good."

 After Shen Youchu finished speaking, he rushed into the rain. The figure looked small and lonely in the rain.

 "Do you want to go..."

 Just as Shang Yanyan was about to speak, she saw Chen Hansheng jumping up and chasing him outside.

 "Chen Hansheng and Shen Youchu broke up?"

 This message filled Shang Yanyan's mind. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, but she gritted her teeth, suddenly took off her high heels, held them in her hand, and followed with her bare feet.

 Chen Hansheng finally caught up with Shen Youchu at the door of the dormitory. He shouted loudly from behind: "If you have any problems, tell us and we will solve them. But if you leave like this, you can't come to me whenever you want. A place where you can just go."

 "If you leave this time, don't even think about coming back next time!"

 Shen Youchu paused for a moment, but still rushed into the girls' dormitory without looking back. At the corner of the stairs, Shen Youchu couldn't help it anymore, squatted on the steps and hugged his knees, crying helplessly.

 "I really want to have a next time, Chen Hansheng."

 ······

 Seeing Shen Youchu leaving like this, Chen Hansheng suddenly fell into a trance and let the rain wash over him.

 "Kick, kick, kick"

 Shang Yanyan also chased after her. When she saw Chen Hansheng standing alone downstairs in the girls' dormitory, she suddenly understood something.

 She pulled Chen Hansheng up to the corridor of the small garden, and only then did Chen Hansheng react.

 He took out his cigarette and wanted to smoke it, but the rain wet the cigarette and it hung softly on his lips. Chen Hansheng got angry and crushed the cigarette in the palm of his hand, leaving tobacco leaves all over his hands.

 Shang Yanyan suddenly felt distressed. This was Chen Hansheng, a scornful and mature bastard. When had he ever looked like this?

 She hugged Chen Hansheng from behind, pressed her body tightly against his back, and comforted him: "If you want to cry, just cry. I'm still by your side."

 "Smelly sister, what's wrong with you?"

 Chen Hansheng violently broke away from Shang Yanyan's arms, and the water on his hair kept dripping on his face: "Why am I crying? From today on, I am a single scumbag again, I should celebrate!"

 But that night, Chen Hansheng, who had always been in good health, developed a fever of 40 degrees.