I Don’t Want to be a Villainess

Moreover, Ha Neul had her arms wide open.

If she had been sitting or standing, one might have thought someone was aiming a gun at her.

So… Ha Neul was essentially saying to come up from below.

And from up there, it also meant to press our faces and bodies together right before our lips touched.

“…Hey, Ha Neul.”

I said while rubbing my face.

“Do we really need to go that far?”

“Yeah. That’s how I see it.”

Ha Neul’s response was firm.

“We need stimulating memories, right? And those ‘stimulating’ memories tend to lose their impact if repeated too many times. We have to gradually increase the intensity.”

‘Gradually?’

Did she just say ‘gradually’?

I had no idea how vast the gap was between my idea of ‘a little’ and Ha Neul’s idea of ‘a little’.

Of course, it’s just an unquantifiable sensation, so it can vary from person to person—

“And we’ve already passed that stage.”

Ha Neul said while lying down.

“Remember that time in the observation vehicle? Don’t you?”

“……”

Oh, right.

That time, although it was the opposite position, it was somewhat similar to the stance Ha Neul was taking now.

It wasn’t ‘on the bed’, but Ha Neul was ‘above’ back then.

……

I could feel Sara’s insides bubbling.

But judging by her silence, she seemed to have nothing to retort back with.

Certainly, having already experienced ‘that kind of situation,’ there was a need for something more stimulating.

Besides, there really wasn’t time to fight about it right now. Sua was in the shower, and Sohee was preparing for work, but both of them would be back soon. Especially Sohee, who might return a little earlier.

“…Fine.”

In the end, I nodded to her words.

Huff.

Then, making a sound as if to gather strength, I slapped my cheeks with both hands.

What I was about to do wasn’t for personal reasons but out of necessity, so it was an unavoidable action. I kept murmuring that to myself and moved my body.

The bed was getting closer. I could see Ha Neul’s legs bent over the edge of the bed.

…It didn’t seem possible to go up over Ha Neul without touching her legs. After all, our ‘bodies’ had to come into contact.

I lifted my right knee next to Ha Neul’s left thigh. Slowly, I moved my body as if crawling onto the bed.

Fortunately, Ha Neul and I were still wearing pajamas, so there wouldn’t be any bare skin touching.

But even though there wouldn’t be—

Pajamas, meant for comfort while sleeping, were soft and thin enough to let me feel the body heat through them.

Ha Neul’s warmth faintly felt through the soft fabric.

My heart was racing. I wasn’t sure if it was from my heart pounding or because of Sara. Maybe both of us had our hearts racing. Regardless, this situation was undeniably embarrassing and awkward for both.

Moreover, Ha Neul remained completely still while I crawled over her.

Both of my knees were now on the bed.

I ended up lying on top of Ha Neul. While my stomach and chest hadn’t touched yet, the situation itself was already hugely embarrassing.

Is this enough?

Isn’t it just a matter of bringing our faces closer now? My mind felt foggy. Perhaps it was the influence of my past life where I had no resilience to women, or maybe it was because Sara inside me was about to pop out any moment.

Ha Neul was looking straight up at me.

“Hold my hand.”

Ha Neul whispered softly.

I shifted my gaze away from her flushed face and looked at her hands beside her face.

Yeah, I looked up at them.

Ha Neul still had her hands slightly away from her face, so if I wanted to hold them, I had to raise my arms a bit.

And I can guarantee you, moving in such a way with Sara’s body would likely cause my posture to collapse. It would probably end up looking like a cat stretching.

……Okay, stay calm.

……No, should I not stay calm?

I needed to create a state so stimulating that I could lose my consciousness, yet if I remained rational, I felt like I wouldn’t be able to go through with it.

……Ugh, whatever.

I placed my right hand on Ha Neul’s right hand.

My palm met her slightly damp palm.

…Ha Neul moved her fingers and intertwined them with mine.

And she held on tightly.

Our right hands had formed a clasped connection.

“Hold me.”

…Well, technically speaking, I was still stretching my fingers out, so it was Ha Neul who was holding my hand tightly.

Ha Neul’s request to ‘hold me’ probably meant she wanted me to intertwine our fingers too.

…Alright, let’s stay composed.

…No, I shouldn’t be composed.

The two hearts were crashing against each other.

Honestly, Ha Neul was cute. Pretty. Her figure was toned. If there were other guys in the same class, she would have attracted attention like Sara. She might have been popular regardless of her family background. A girl with a good personality, kind and pretty, wouldn’t lack admirers.

So… no matter how much I told myself I had no selfish intentions, it was bound to be a lie.

I knew I shouldn’t think that way. Ha Neul was helping me purely as a friend, and I was merely receiving help.

I shouldn’t fulfill my selfish desires with actions like this.

But still, I couldn’t suppress the joyful feeling blooming in a corner of my heart.

“The other hand too.”

“……”

I thought it was a bit inappropriate, but somewhere in my heart, the thought ‘Ha Neul allowed it’ came to mind.

…Though I had been trying to keep a distance from such feelings recently.

But didn’t the current situation call for it? My inner self kept whispering this out.

I slowly raised my left hand. My right arm was trembling with strain, so I quickly placed my left hand over Ha Neul’s hand.

Ha Neul immediately intertwined her fingers with my left hand too. Now it was a state where I couldn’t casually pull away.

As our arms spread apart, my face got even closer to Ha Neul’s.

My arms were already shaking. Sara’s body lacked the stamina to maintain this position perfectly.

“……”

“……”

Ha Neul and I locked our gazes up close.

My breath quickened, but then I realized something and inhaled deeply.

If my breath quickened, it would touch Ha Neul’s face. Would she not find it unpleasant?

However, Ha Neul’s expression remained largely unchanged.

There was no clear sign of discomfort.

No, she was actually smiling brightly. Her face was flushed, and her hair was let down.

Right, Ha Neul hadn’t tied her hair back yet. It was Sunday morning, and everyone was still in their pajamas.

Her usually hard-to-see brown hair was scattered over the bed.

Lying down on the bed together, perhaps it had gotten a little hot since Sohee had also somehow joined in at some point. Ha Neul’s face had a slight sheen of sweat on it.

And a few strands of hair stuck to that face.

A tempting look that contrasted sharply with Ha Neul’s usual lively demeanor.

“Now, you can come slowly.”

With Ha Neul’s words, I unconsciously followed.

I slowly lowered my face, which was almost right in front of her. My view became filled with Ha Neul’s face, getting so close that our noses could touch with just the slightest movement.

…Still, my consciousness had not yet shifted.

How much closer do I need to get—

As I was thinking, I heard a creak.

Creak, creak…?

Only after hearing that sound did I feel a sense of blankness overcoming my mind.

Ah, right, of course.

It wasn’t just Ha Neul and I here. I had unconsciously let myself get lost in the atmosphere and hadn’t realized my surroundings at all.

No, it wasn’t that I hadn’t noticed my surroundings; I could barely think at all—

That was the truth!

*

“Hu-hah!”

As if losing her mind, Sara’s eyes slowly closed before popping wide open.

And as if she were determined never to lose consciousness, she quickly turned her head to the side.

Thud! Sara’s face completely flopped down.

…Just not onto Ha Neul’s face, but the side of the bed.

Sara appeared to have collapsed face down next to Ha Neul.

“……”

And there was Sohee, watching the scene from the side.

“…Uh…”

Sohee stood there dazed for a moment before snapping to attention and gasped in horror.

“W-What on earth are you two doing!?”

Sohee shouted, but there was no response.

Naturally, there was one person who was deeply disheartened.

And that person was Ha Neul, who was squished under the collapsed Sara.

Still gripping Sara’s hands tightly, Ha Neul had an expression of ‘Ah, it was all going so well.’

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